You are the reason for me to smile,

even in the hardest of day,

even if

your voice never whispers in my ears,

the warmth of your hearts,

is keeping me comfort,

even in the coldest of night,

pity,

we never cross path,

till the day comes,

when my eyes caught the sight of you,

I stay here waiting,

dear the girl I havent met.

Awesome day

Im sick,have fever and heavy flu

but yesterday got to be a highlight of my year..

18 May 2011 - the day my PSPM II results were out

I woke up quite early that day feeling nervous.. the results supposed to be posted at 10am.. by 9 I already wide awake.. since there was nothing to do. I decided to go to facebook and see if anything up. Then one of my friend told me that the results were delayed to 12pm. Owh what the heck so I watched tv to burn some time. Then dum dum dum 12pm! I was nervous wating for my result. Then something completely unexpected happened, nobody got the results. I visited my F2 group page and what I can say it was chaos. People posting and commenting everywhere and thats where I joined in. I posted few posts here and there :D

Then I got bored of waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting so i get some sleep

Then I woke up around 2.30. Pray and check my facebook then at that same time two of my friends Ell and Kak Siti asked me bout my result and they gave me the link. Then I checked,, when I got my result I was like what this my last sems result.. then I see its PNGS2 -So my results are same for both sems *gumbire* so I called my mum and sms my dad (he's at Jakarta at that time) and I told my grandpa all. They were all happy.. then we had a little celebration last night.. and I would like to express gratitude to all my teachers family and friends without them I wont get this result

THANK YOU

Allah

My Parents - My mum and dad

My lecturers and my mentors

My friends especially my practicum mate, my roommate, my close friends

AND my friends back at Kajang that I know most of yall since form 1

Do you want to be famous?

If you do.. how?

I think most of us agreed

that the easiest way to be famous is by joining the reality competition show

We have all these live reality show mostly based on singing and anything related to entertainment. Here alone, we have plenty of them... and with that we have hundreds of entertainer right here, but pardon me for saying that we have quantities not qualities.. I'm not gifted in singing or acting or anything related to arts but since I got nothing to write. I might as well write about this.

The way I see it, there once a reality show soo famous, the ex-students of the competition really having their time of their live, but now where are they? Not on tv, not on stage, but living their life like before they joined the competition. I remember once there is this guy, he is not much of a singer but for some unknown reason he is very famous until the organizer had to bring him back even tho he was expelled before by the judges and he is still much well know few years after that and few controversies. Then, poof he's gone suddenly. But for sure, the qualities of the competitions are getting poor tho. There's also this comedian competition and some of them are not comedians they are clowns! and there is guy he is soo suck the audiences are funnier than him.

Then here comes the moneymakers trying to make as much money out of them. The process of elimination of the contestant is mostly if not completely up to the audience's sms. Then what are the judges for? Then here come the producers, "these two had affair! lets make a movie starring those two with that we can make more $$"..."One of the contestant is from a poor family, so they show his/her life on tv so that people will feel sorry and vote."... Oh come on, are we really these kind of people to make money out of other person personal's life.

To those who dreaming bout being an artist by joining a reality show.. "easy come, easy go"

some of them are got potential tho.. such as ...... erm up to each individual

watch your tongue

Everyone want attentions from other people, let it be from their friends and love one.. some might do something romantic and worth remembering. But some they like to throw insult on other people. Some even top it off with a bad language

you are (insert f word here) (insert hurtful comment here)

*hurtful is it?*

Some people refer this as a joke, but this is the meaning of the word JOKE

"something said or done to provoke laughter or cause amusement "

How can u call that a joke by making a hurtful comment of others? I maybe not a saint, I hurt other's feeling sometimes but I never meant to do it as a joke of trying to get attention. I been trying to be a better person since.

insult,humiliate each of us suffers from these kind of attacks before. Some of us just take it as a joke but some keep it in their heart. God knows what if they cant take it anymore? They might not be friends anymore... friendship destroyed by this awful comments. For me, there is a fine line between joke and insults.. when u joke around, people laugh but when u insult there's gonna be heart broken. Sometimes insult can be caused when people having a misunderstanding about people. Their behavior, perspective and such

Some people tend to insults other's physical or lifestyle or IQ. That is bad, but it can get worse when some people insults other's family or love ones or even religion! There are plenty of groups at facebook that insult religion. I never know why they hate one religion in the first place. Its what people believe and worships. Other people dont have the right to insult god of any religion. Whatever grudge you hold, just keep it to yourself.

PEOPLE, each and everyone of us is different in their own way and we are not perfect. Cut off the insults. You cant expect everyone to be like what you wanted. Im not ashamed to admit that I insulted people before and I'm sorry for that. I will not insults people just to get attention from others. Hurtful comments just keep it in your mind.

"It is better to say nothing than to say something meaningless"

this is kinda funny actually I started to listen songs from this band but they were around since like 1985 haha kinda old and they are still around.. well they are none other than Radiohead never gets old.. and they released their new album "The King Of Limbs" this year and the song nice.. especially Lotus Flower.. but the songs are kinda make u feel dizzy sometimes and need to get used to it..

even the artwork is kindda blurry but the songs good

and they are also top 100 best bands in history.. okay so im kinda late bout this but who cares

hope they'll make a concert here in Malaysia soon.. :) hopefully but their fan base here is quite small sooo yea tough luck...

and about my vacation.....i really got nothing to do and im spending waaayy too much time watching Family guy, How I Met Your Mother and CSI... haha nothing beats the comedy of Stewie Griffin (FG) and Barney (HIMYM) and last Sunday i played Ultimate Frisbee with my friends... I was awesome i never play the game before so yea kindda suck at it.. but i scored the first my first goal... cannt wait to play again still and yea still lot to learn,,

omg cant sleep yesterday night for some reason so i gonna get some nap...

T.H.E.E.N.D

20th April 2011.. the day where i ended my one year matriculation programme at Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan.. I got mixed feelings about leaving the college, im happy cause im free.. but kindda sad cuz i gonna leave my room B3.3.6 add 1 more num and u can go buy urself a lottery num (no advised to do so)

yesterday 10.15am more or less i finished my last paper for pspm sem2 chemistry paper 1 so i went out and got absolutely blank.. I usually straight away go back but for some reason i stay there maybe the sight of people like hugging n shaking hands together got this weird effect.. hmmm then she passed by... she looked at me like in a split second so I wasnt that sure if its really sure and next thing I know i was chasing that girl... turns out she is really that girl.. we talked a bit, first time we talked since that thing happened.. so i went back feeling kindda happy even if it is just for a while..

I packed my stuff and returned back my pillow and keys and the curtains.. got some paper and poof im ready to go back but still i have to wait few hours to pick me up... in our group im the third last to go back... i went back only before shark n faizal...

so thats the end of my matriculation studies :')

in an unrelated news

my neighbour's gate collapsed, so the house got risk of crumbling down.. so there were alot of heavy machinery infront of my house... but theres another thing... those people are not a good neighbour. Complaint bout this and that so they didnt get along with my family and others... think about it we are living in a same community.. so we always have to give and take.. so maybe this is god's test to show them never act soo "sombong" infront of others. When we ran into someone we know a simple smile will do .. hope nothing bad happen to them...

and i end my post with a simple smile and good bye :)

simple kindness give me hopes :)

I felt terribly down yesterday, maybe because I'm tired and I'm upset with the fact that I might wont be able to see some of my friends anymore..

but still I had this study group with some of my practicum mates.. they noticed that I'm not in cheer mood even I still answered their questions.. so one of my friends he tried to make jokes to cheer me up and i was like yea I'm enjoying his jokes but I really dont have the mood to smile, but the he didnt stop just that.. he talk and talk and then they treat me a can of drink.. then after I finished study with them on the way back to my room, I got a text message from another practicum mate that study with me every night.. she told me to look up.. so i did and asked why.. and she said u cant see any stars right? thats because u didnt smile.. so go ahead n smile.. then i was like touched :) If there is a time where everything feels right.. that was the time.. u guys are the best and I wont forget the time we spend ever.. last night is like the time where I truly didnt feel alone. THANKS guys

Small part of a bigger family.. from left kak farah, kak pija, me! and faris

they are also my study group.. we study together everytime

but that doesnt mean I forget those back home, I'll be back on 20th April.. I'll be seeing u guys.. long time didnt see u guys